Are You Dragging Dead Bodies?

Yeah, with all the zombie hype and negativity in the news, I thought a morbid approach for this title might grab your attention! But it's actually a serious question.

Many of us are dragging around dead bodies with us and just can't get rid of them. Even when we know they serve no real purpose and don't bring any value to our lives.

Photo by  Ian Espinosa

Photo by Ian Espinosa

Okay, yes, we're not talking about literal dead bodies (which I'm sure you assumed, because you're smart like that), but we ARE talking about the dead weight you drag around with you when you continue to try and save relationships that are way past their expiry date.

Essentially, we're talking about toxic relationships. And these come in many shapes and sizes.

There's the dramatic friend who's life is a mess and they always depend on you to help pick up the pieces of their disaster decisions that you somehow get wrapped up in it because you're trying to do everything for them until they get their shit together... which never seems to happen.

There's the parents who are always negative and consistently let you know that you can't do anything right; who don't understand the direction you're taking in your life because they never experienced anything outside of their limited bubble of beliefs, so they crap all over your ideas and tell you that you should have a "real job".

There's the partner who isn't supportive at all because they're afraid you'll outgrow them, so they try to control you and keep you small; they fight you on every kind of personal development aspect you're doing for yourself and tell you that you're being selfish.

I could go on, but I'm sure you get the idea.

Most of us can think of at least one toxic relationship that we tolerate for one reason or another.

But aren't you tired of carrying around that dead body?

It drains your energy.

It triggers thoughts of doubt.

It causes feelings of unworthiness.

And for what?

What value does that relationship truly bring to your life?

It doesn't matter if you've been friends with that train wreck of a friend since kindergarten.

It doesn't matter if they're your parents, so you feel like you owe them something.

It doesn't matter if you've been with your partner for years and are terrified if you leave them, you'll die alone.

Honestly. It doesn't matter.

You don't owe anyone anything.

No matter what your past history is.

No matter what your future fears are.

You don't owe them shit.

But you know who you DO owe something to?


So use this as your permission to take a long hard look at the toxic relationships in your life.

Do you really want to keep tolerating their bullshit because you feel guilty or scared of change?

Are you really willing to make yourself feel like crap because you don't want to hurt their feelings?

Letting toxic relationships persist in your life are like dragging dead bodies.

It serves no real purpose for you.

It brings no true value to you.

So maybe you start by lessening the time you spend with them.

Or maybe you decide to go cold turkey and just peace out.

But know this...

you create your experience of life.

So if something - or someone - doesn't serve a purpose or bring value to your life, you're allowed to walk away.

You'll get over the guilt.

You'll get over the fear.

And you'll be giving yourself the amazing gift of freedom.

To be who you are.

To do what you know you're meant to do.

Because you don't have to answer to anyone but yourself.

This is your life.

What kind of life experience will you create for yourself?



Why do we Ask for Permission?

Asking for permission - whether literally, or subconsciously - is something society has trained us to do since a very young age. But have you ever stopped to consider WHY we ask for permission? Isn't this OUR life? So, doesn't that mean we can do what WE want?

This article by Katie Byrne explores why we ask for permission, and suggests how truly empowered we can be, if only we trust ourselves, without asking for permission anymore.

But since we're not used to that, and it makes us uncomfortable, if you still find yourself asking for permission, then consider this as your permission to be yourself. To shed the 'shoulds' of where you think you should be, or what you're told you should be doing. This is your permission to live your life the way YOU want!

It’s time to show up for yourself like you never have before. It’s time to live true and be you – authentically living the life you want.

Photo by:   Matthew Henry

Photo by: Matthew Henry

Approval-seeking manifests itself in many different ways. Sometimes it's obvious and ugly (think: gloating and bragging); and sometimes it's quiet and reserved (think: not speaking up for fear of losing favour).

Other times, it manifests as a need for constant reassurance. This type of approval-seeker second-guesses almost every decision by asking others for their opinion.

Do you think they would mind if I did this? Would it be really bad if I didn't do that?

They don't actually want an alternative opinion, though. They simply want to be told that, yes, their position is perfectly acceptable and, no, it wouldn't be that bad at all.

We do this dance all the time, women especially. One person purports to be asking for advice and the other purports to be giving it.

Yet what we're actually seeking, if we're entirely honest, is a permission slip to be ourselves, and an insurance policy to act autonomously.

We live in a permission-seeking culture. In a school setting, children have to put their hand up to ask if they can go to the bathroom; in the workplace, adults have to file requests to take their vacation days.

Because we are so used to asking for permission, some of us have forgotten that not every decision needs the stamp of approval.

The approval-based system of social media 'likes' doesn't help matters. Sure, we can post whatever we like, whenever we like, but crowd consensus validates our opinions, giving us permission to have them in the first place.

The death of privacy, and the culture of transparency, can also make us feel as though we have to share our decisions before we actually embark upon them.

Writer Bell Hooks explains it best: "In our culture, privacy is often confused with secrecy. Open, honest, truth-telling individuals value privacy. We all need spaces where we can be alone with thoughts and feelings - where we can experience healthy psychological autonomy and can choose to share when we want to."

Chronic permission-seekers, however, have neither healthy psychological autonomy nor personal authority because they have allowed themselves to be governed by the opinions of others.

"The only permission, the only validation, and the only opinion that matters in our quest for greatness is our own," wrote Steve Maraboli in Unapologetically You, yet chronic permission-seekers rely on others to endorse their opinions, losing their connection to their own inner knowing in the process.

They have become so used to the reassurance of others that they can no longer hear their own inner wisdom or feel their gut instinct. Meanwhile, they are misled by the mistaken belief that they have to ask for permission to pursue their passions.

Some people have a big, potentially transformative idea and immediately go about actualizing it. Permission-seekers, however, believe the idea has to be rubber stamped and signed off by a committee of friends and family before they even allow themselves to truly contemplate it.

"It's a poor fellow who can't take his pleasure without asking other people's permission," wrote Hermann Hesse, yet this is precisely what permission-seekers do, time and time again.

Do you think this is too expensive, they wonder, before buying an item of clothing. Do you think this comes across as rude, they ask, before sending a text. It's a habit that breeds inconsistency and indecision.

If you're always asking for permission, try to catch yourself just before you seek reassurance. Do you really need to send your friend a photo of the coat you want to buy? Do you really have to ask everyone else at the table if they are ordering dessert?

There is huge empowerment in thinking entirely for yourself, and then following through on it.

As a more challenging exercise, you could try taking up something new - a hobby, a sport or an activity you've always wanted to try - without discussing it with anyone in advance.

"Imagine what you'd do if it absolutely didn't matter what people thought of you," writes Martha Beck. "Got it? Good. Never go back." It is in this spirit that permission-seekers should re-evaluate their constant need for reassurance.

It's also important to look at the language you use. Do you start sentences with 'Sorry, but' and texts with 'Would it be okay if...?' The words we use affect the way we think and behave, so try saying 'I will' and 'I am' instead. When we make more assured statements, we tend to act accordingly.

Likewise, try to get into the habit of examining your underlying intentions. Are you really seeking someone's opinion, or are you simply asking them to tell you what you want to hear? Sure, we all need guidance from time to time, but there is a big difference between a sounding board and an echo chamber.

So many dreams go unfulfilled, and so much talent goes untapped, because people are waiting to be given permission to do what they really want to do.

Why not just give yourself a permission slip to do it anyway?